What a Blah Day

You know it is a bad day when even the Internet isn't amusing you.

Yep. That kind of day.

So, here I was, all pumped about this interview I had at Malone. I rocked it, literally. They told me so. Well the said "You did very well,", which we all know is adult talk for you rocked it. They also said that they would call either way - whether I got the job or not.

Well, that was Monday. Today is Saturday. No call, whatsoever. Then, I went all stalkerish on their website. Their Board of Education meeting agenda indicates that they are going to appoint the English position on Tuesday. Well, you can't appoint a teacher unless they have accepted the job. I haven't gotten a phone call, so I am guessing they are not going to ask me to accept. I mean, they know they want to appoint on Tuesday, so I doubt they are going to call me Monday and ask me.

This is very frustrating. Why is it that I always get to the final round and not get chosen? Talk about taking a hit to the self esteem. This is the third time in two years this has happened to me. When I was first applying to jobs, three years ago, this also happened, so many times I lost count. Back then it was flattering. I mean with all the competition I was flattered even to be interviewed. Now I am frustrated. I want a job, I want to work. I have bills to pay!

What I want to do is sit down with all these people and ask "Why didn't you hire me?" Not in that I am going to burst into tears kind of way, but I want to know so if I get to this stage again, I know what I should and shouldn't do. What did it come down to that when it was narrowed down they chose not to hire me?

Frustrating. I really just want a job. I get my hopes all up and they are dashed with a big fat stick of rejection. I feel inadequate. If I don't have a job, how am I supposed to help support my family? How am I supposed to be able to start a family? Why is the outcome of my life determined by other people? I mean, I lost my job because the state stopped funding GB. Who decided that? Do they not realize that cutting a budget has profound effects? I mean, not only did I lose the job, but these students are on a fast track to no where if you keep taking things away from them.  Why are sports still being funded, but teachers being cut? I mean, sure, soooo many high school student go on to play pro sports, it only makes sense that they keep funding that. Yeah, ok.


See, that kind of day.