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Today was a another day tacked on to a week that seems to be developing far too strongly in to random acts of oh nos! Now, if that doesn't at all make sense to you, it also does not make sense to me, so there you go.

So, Sunday was the anniversary of my Gramma's death. Katherine was here, and after she left,  went to see my sister who is up from Florida, so I didn't have any alone time to really dwell on it. That alone made me feel like a bad person. I feel like should have done something to commemorate the occasion, but I didn't really know what to do. The fact that she died in the winter does not make it overly conducive to visit her grave. Then, I thought perhaps I should do something here.... but what? I have never had anyone that close to me die, so I have no precedent to go by. I cried once Sunday, but that is it. It weird because I will break down at the memory of the fact that she used to park in the JCP parking lot when we went to the mall so she would always know where we parked, but on the anniversary of her death I did nothing. I feel like I am not properly memorializing her.

Today, my dad started off with me screaming "No no no no no no no!" because I woke up at six am. I usually leave for work at six am.  I didn't hear my alarm go off. My phone says it went off, so it must have, but I did not hear it. I think it is karma. I took meds before I went to bed, and they weren't really necessary, so yeah. I mean, my back did hurt, and my neck was tense, but I should have just sucked it up and dealt.

Yesterday,  found out that I need to have my wisdom teeth yanked out of my head. I am dreading this. Mostly because I am afraid it will give me terribly bad breath. I am so self conscious of that since Josh's breath can be down right disgusting at times. But, his didn't start until he had his wisdom teeth pulled. I am also apprehensive because I will not be sedated for this. My insurance does not cover sedation, so instead I am just getting the local Novocain.  I am sure it will suck royally, but I could not fathom spending $600 when the local is free. Right?

I hope my week gets better. Not that this is really that terrible. I just like more routine and less spontaneity.

I love Saturdays

This has been an absolutely terrific Saturday. It has been the type of Saturday where I have bee kind of productive and have gotten stuff done, but do not feel like I spent the whole day working. No pressure, 2014, but the bar has been set pretty high for Saturdays. Be on alert....

However, Saturday's are quite possibly the worst days as far as keeping me on track for trying to get fit/lose weight. I started off my day with a big breakfast including bacon. Do I regret it? No. I do however wish I had made myself go to the gym. But, I didn't want to. I mean, let's face it,  I never want to go to the gym, but I should have today. Oh well, there is tomorrow. And, I am out of bacon, so tomorrow is looking healthier already. :)

So, the realization that next Sunday marks the one year anniversary of my Gramma's death dawned upon me yesterday. It seems crazy to think that is has been a year since she passed. Some days it seems long ago, and others it seems like I just talked to her, you know? Thanksgiving was hard, but Christmas came easier. I do not know why. I know that I feel kind of guilty about it. I don't really know why, but I do.

New Year, New Me? Yeah, we'll see.

So, I can't believe that 2013 is over. I mean sure, I lived each one of the 365 days, ticked them off one by one, and counted down while the ball dropped, but it is still surreal to me. Sure, some might think I am being nostaligic, or beginning to dread the process of aging, but it is none of that. 2013 was a rough year for me; I am surprised I made it out alive.

Oh, and did I ever. I had a New Year's Eve to be remember (which, with the amount that I drank almost didn't happen.) Husband and I went out on the town with D, DL, and Dartmer. It was fantastic. Drew was playing at a bar (read:sketchy ass place.) We danced and had a good time of it. Husband made me go home when my alarm clock to wake up for work went off. Yep, that kind of night.

But, not as two days have passed into this New Year, I realized I have not solidified any resolutions. Okay, so I realized this at work, while I was wishing I was ANYWHERE but there....so, I brainstormed a couple:

1. I will read and blog about at least one book a month. Also, half of this minimum (so, six) should not be classified as YA. I spent enough time around teenagers....which if you didn't know I was a teacher sounds really sketchtastic.

2. I will make working out a regular part of my life. (Not losing weight, but being active. Yep, changing the wording should make all the difference in the world.)

3. Be more proactive/less procrastinating in all work related things. I mean, I have been exponentially better in regards to handing back papers this year, but I can definitely up my game in lesson planning and grading faster. No more continuously waiting until the last minute.

4. Spend me time, everyday. Whether it is reading, writing, nothing. Just free my mind from all the things that weigh it down.

5. Stay in touch with those I care about better. Don't just Facebook stalk them. Reach out.

6. Start a 401k.


So, I think these are pretty reasonable goals to achieve. That is also a goal, to make reasonable goals. So, let's see how this all goes.