One Sided Friendships

You know what sucks? That in so many friendships, there is always one person who seems to care about the other more. Now, I might just be jaded, but I really think that in 90% of my friendships, I am more willing to do things for the other person than they are me. It kind of sucks.

What brought about this pity party one might ask? It isn't even that I needed a friend and they weren't willing to help. It was that I knew a friend needed help, and despite the YEARS of our friendship, I am not the person they allowed to help them. I know how backwards this sounds, I really do, but nonetheless, it definitely stings a bit when the help I offer is overlooked because this new and exciting person has offered to help instead. It makes me feel as though the foundation of our friendship is jello.  Which is sucky.

In reality, my problem is most likely the fact that I have way too much free time on my hands. I do. Entirely. Too. Much. Time. All I do is sit around and think. Well, technically, I do other stuff, but it is all very trivial and unimportant. I have thoroughly cleaned my house (not going to lie, it was kind of ewe in some places. Not like hidden piles of mold in the back of the fridge ewe, just like how many inches of dust can actually accumulate in one place ewe.), I have read a book (Game of Thrones - pretty good) and like um, applied for jobs. Yeah, see, I've done STUFF, but like I said, none of it is all that important. I am meant to do more with my life! But what? I mean, I really have no choice in what I do. Unfortunately for me, I do not get to control the circumstances surrounding my getting a job. Nope, that's up to the tax payers and some god awful governor who thinks offering tax breaks to companies will improve NY's future. Yes, we are broke and have to cut education funding, but by all means, if you want to start a business you don't need to pay taxes! If that is not a prime example of why education needs more funding (because his obviously has failed him), I don't know what is.