New Hope?

I am definitely one of those people who get very excited over possibilities, no matter how far fetched they may be. Today's excitement is the possibility of me getting a new job! There is a local(ish) school hiring for a new English teacher and I am sending out my application tomorrow.

Now, some might say "You haven't even sent in your application yet, why are you getting excited?" I just do. I get excited at new possibilities all the time. The slightest hint of something new and positive gets my blood stirring in the hopeful way that makes one excited. This, I feel,  is a fantastic way of viewing life. However, it does come with its negative: The part where things do not work out so well.

When I was first applying to teaching jobs three years ago, this happened quite often. I would go to an interview, it would go really well, and I would walk away thinking "Boom, crushed it!". Then I would get the phone call "I'm sorry, it came down to you and another candidate, and we have decided to go with the other candidate." SO MANY TIMES this happened. Trust me, I didn't always take it so well. More than one pint of Ben and Jerry's Phish Food met it's inevitable death at the hands of my spoon and feelings of remorse.

Since then, I have learned to deal slightly better with rejection. I mean, no one likes being rejected. It sucks. Someone out there is like "Sorry, you just aren't good enough". Sometimes it's a boy/girl, a job, a little kid who won't return your wave; it all stings. But, trust me, no amount of ice cream will make you feel better. In fact, it will instead only make you feel fatter, which will make you feel worse, and thus you enter a viscous circle.

Moving on, I hope I get this job. It is a good district, close to home and family, and my husband and I could keep on keeping on here in our little home. In a year or two (or four...), we might even be able to start a family. So, I am keeping my fingers crossed and looking above. And, of course, squirming with excitement and hope.